Meh hee co.

I am back from Tuscon-Bibsbee-Tombstone-Summerhaven,Arizona / Puerto Penasco,Mexico. and Im first relieved to be back and in the midst of the spiraling circus and at the same time wish I could jump in the car and drive back to Mexico to escape the spiraling circus around me.

In recap - Tuscon sucks, because its too spread out and basically a sprawling urban hellhole like OKC only with cactus everywhere and no street lights. On the other hand its surrounded by really fascinating National Parks and Mountains so all and all its 300% a better place to live than Oklahoma but 10% of Colorado or any of my other favorite places.

Bisbee is badass, its a little mountain town in one of the smallest valleys Ive ever seen - which means: a) every thing is in walking distance, b) only kookie hippies live there. There main street looks like something out of Italy and they had two great shops there. First a shop where the owner sells honey products, from killer bees that he harvests from www.killerbeeguy.com . The other shop was the Optimo Hattery www.optimohatworks.com . I was thrilled to have a hattery to spend a few hours in, they primarily custom make panama hats (expensive straw fedoras) and I was busy looking and sizing and trying when Amy spontaneously decided she wanted one for her birthday present from me, so we ended up spending a few hours getting her fitted for her first expensive hat.

Tombstone was campy, as campy as I had expected it would be but I had fun because of the bizarre twist of a town that had its heyday in the early 60's when there was a culture fascinated with the 1880's. So you have this strange twist of cowboy's and 60's camp. It was a good piece of pop culture.

Suumerhaven is Colorado, a liitle town on Mt. Lemon outside of Tucson we drove up there to 8,000 feet and you swear your in Aspen, or Vale. Only its an 18th the size, but it was refreshing to be in the cool alpine air, if only for a little while. After we got back from Summerhaven I got violenlty sick I had a strange sudden fever and muscle cramps all over my body which Im still recovering from. I dont know what hit me, but it was the weirdest uncomfortable feeling ive ever had, the cramps got so bad I was incapable of getting up the first day I had them; and only heavy doses of tylenol would cease the pain up until last night.

Puerto Penasco is a classic developing resort Mexican town, lots of poverty next door to lavish palaces for American $'s. I really disliked that aspect of Cancun a lot, there they have done a good job of covering up the poverty so the American's don't see it, and can go from airport to resort and then back to airport being completely oblivious. Puerto Penasco has barely begun the task of blindsiding the tourists. I think it was quite a shocker to most of my family, my sister didn't have a problem (she's seen it before) and Amy didn't either. I felt really angry and stressed out there for a lot of reasons, but mainly because I had to listen to my dad, uncle and aunt bitch about Mexicans, Indians, Catholics, Gays, drinkers, college kids, the police, the government their's and our's, Oklahomans, liberals, the weather, store owners, junk pedaling kids, just about anything. and that I felt guilty about being one of the resort going too Americans I have loathed so much - without giving to the community I was taking from. Oh well it was good to go back and refresh what I love about Mexico, and what I'm really doing with my life and music.

In other news: the Chase and Carrie wedding was awesome, the best ive been too, been in, or videod; I want the vibe at that shindig to be the vibe of the rest of my life. I thought a lot about how I envy extroverts or people that can be extroverted even though they are introverted. Ive been so deeply introverted for so long its very hard to express myself, even in my songs I feel ashamed and embaressed by other people hearing or seeing what's actually me. My father-in-law tells me all the time that I'm a vampire and that I must dislike him and everyone else. I hate that people have always assumed that I don't like them, I don't dislike anyone - honestly there isn't anyone I dislike or hate. There are a few people that I feel I shouldn't be around for a period of time, because I think it will bring out the worst in me or them, but that always passes with time. Im now rambling on my longest post ever. Goodnight.